How quickly things change & the word ‘Promise’

This time last year my life was completely different, I was 17, about to attend a new college (I lost my place at the one before), I associated with people who don’t even look at me now. I was looking forward to being 18 and the freedom that comes with that age. I was in a relationship that failed spectacularly a few months later. My point is that there is no point having these hopes and dreams for the future if not only for personal pleasure & to just get by in life in general. Nothing will ever turn out the way it hoped. There is no possible way to prepare yourself for what will happen in the future you just have to make wise choices when you come to it.

I am a strong believer in fate therefore not much upsets me (well at least not for a while) because I genuinely believe that there is a reason for all the shit that happens to me & no matter how crappy I feel at that moment, there is no way that whatever has happened is going to make me sad forever. Things eventually look up, you will smile again, you will meet new people and things will change a whole lot more than originally expected.

Which brings me onto my next point, the sentence ‘I promise.’ is simply enough for me to go off someone completely, how the fuck can anyone guarantee anything, emotions can be so easily altered that when someone ‘promises’ me something I immediately doubt their emotional stability and judge them as naive. Promises are bullshit, things change rapidly and the tiniest of things could have achieve incredible change. Ever heard of The Butterfly Effect? the simplest of things like whether I eat cornflakes or toast for breakfast could somehow start another world war (a bit far-fetched but you get my drift). Say if someone said to me “promise me you won’t leave me.” I would simply reply, “Never. If we are meant to be, we will be.” That’s just how life is, you have to play with the hand you’re dealt. And that’s just how things are meant to be. Nothing is certain.